I’ve been talking about my thesis in ITS (Institut Teknologi Sepuluh Nopember) in the last post and the whole things are over now. I’ve attended the defense at January 25th. The sad thing about it is I didn’t pass. Actually, all lecturers but one have approved me to pass the defense. But one lecturers didn’t only give me a bad mark, but she also refused to sign my thesis.
I think it’s unfair because other lecturers gave me good marks. My supervisor gave me an A, and the other two lecturers in the defense committee gave me ABs. Only this lecturer gave me a D, plus a refusal to sign my thesis. I think it’s unreasonable because I have strong arguments on what I’ve done, and it’s all based on strong scientific evidences. But she saw the problem from a different point of view – which in my opinion is not comparable to the problem at hand – and refuses my arguments.
Well, my supervisor had counted the marks and, in fact, my final mark should actually be AB, even with that one D. That’s because the supervisor’s mark weights 40 % and the defense committee’s mark weights 20 % per person. AB is definitely enough to pass. The problem here is the thesis book must be signed by all four lecturers in order for it to be valid. So, although my mark is enough, I just can’t pass.
I was so sad because of this. I’ve been working very hard for the thesis, and it failed for very unreasonable reasons. But later, while I was thinking and praying, I got an insight that it must be God’s plan. There are very good things He is preparing for me, and this is the way to get those things. You know, usually the biggest enemy of the best things are the good things. I can’t tell you in detail now about what I think is God’s plan for me, but one thing I can tell you is that after getting that insight, I got a peace of mind until now. I’ve talked about it with the people around me, and they all agree and support me. So here I am, filled with spirit and motivation. You know, whatever happens, the show must go on.